Who should speak today?

It was one of those afternoons where the quiet in the house felt heavy. I was supposed to be relaxing, but instead, I was stuck in a loop, trying to decide who should share something first in our little family chat later. I glanced at the clock, then back at the list of names, and the minutes just kept passing.

The hesitation before the circle

I had everyone's name written down, but picking one felt like an unnecessary weight. It wasn't a big decision, not really, but it was enough to stall the whole evening. The thought of just choosing randomly crossed my mind, but even that felt like a decision I had to make perfectly.There's a particular kind of tiredness that comes from these small, repetitive choices. You know it doesn't matter in the grand scheme, but in the moment, it takes up all the space. I just wanted the back-and-forth in my head to stop.

Letting the wheel decide

So I opened the wheel tool. It felt a bit silly, honestly, to use it for something so simple. But the relief was immediate the moment I loaded the names in. It wasn't about avoiding responsibility; it was about handing off the mental chatter to something neutral.I spun it. Watching the colors blur together for a second, I realized I was holding my breath. When it landed, it just felt done. The question was answered, not by me agonizing over it, but by a simple, fair chance.

The quiet afterward

There was no fanfare, just a name on the screen. And with it, the loop in my mind finally broke. The evening could start now.